Gettin' it done

I had a super productive weekend!

Friday my Underworks binder came in the mail.  I am SO happy!  I feel so much more confident already.
I also went with my wife to the movies.  We left the kid with my folks (she's one) and went and saw Toy Story 3.  It was fun, though I felt like an idiot because I cried at the end.  :P

After the movie, we headed to pick up the kid, and we hung out with my folks for a little while talking and I TOLD THEM!  I feel so much weight lifted off me!  They are absolutely understanding.  My mom said she always realized I wasn't comfortable with who I was and it makes sense to her.  They of course admitted it will take them time to "transition" as well, but their acceptance and understanding is powerful.
We also chatted about names.  I was still having a difficult time choosing a name, and we discussed what some options are.  My mom kept threatening to name me after my dad like she was going to do if I was "born male."  After some razzing though she said I didn't feel like a "Keith" and that she'd think about names, but nothing was jumping at her.

AFter some more conversations with my wife, and a close friend, I came across a name I like.   I played with the flow a little and choose a middle name and I am feeling REALLY good about it now!

I've chosen Elijah Henry.

I really like Eli as a nickname and my wife liked the idea of Elijah as a full name.  Then Sunday morning at Church, it solidified it when we heard a sermon about Elijah and Elisha, 2 prophets.  The really moving sermon seemed to smack me in the face and I was hooked.
I chose Henry for my great-grandfather on my father's side.  He was a calm, loving and thoughtful man who passed away a few years ago.  I miss him, and I love honoring him this way. (Made my dad smile too.)

So now I can introduce the real me and take my first steps toward happiness.

Till next time,
Eli

overwhelmed and planning changes

So I have decided a couple things I will do in the next week or so.
* tell my parents about my transition
* start "Couch to 5k" program
* begin savings account for top surgery
* move "benefits" to the top of my priority list during a job search
* find a couselor/therapist

In one way or another, all of these things will make me feel better and feel like me. I have been a little down on myself lately, as I am overwhelmed at the price of top surgery. It's not horrible, but it makes me scared if I'll ever be able to save for it.

I have to get my head on straight. I have a lot going on and focusing on everything at once is getting me nowhere. Take each thing as it comes and prioritize the rest.

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In the beginning ...

My outlet of choice is writing. And the events of my life, particularly the last 2 weeks, provided a lot of fuel for me to write out about.

It started simply with a video on Youtube and exploded into books, movies and many late nights online doing research.

Things have culminated in the fact that I now understand myself to be Transgender.

I am starting my transition here.